I guess we are all entitled to them - big mistakes. I ok'd something being posted on the Hive and now I am as guilty as the ones I rail about in terms of being hateful. Well, stupid is as stupid does and in this case I was stupid.
Look, I am hardly an expert on mental health and so my opinions about other people's mental state should never be taken seriously. The reality is I am as nutty as anyone else when it comes to be being opinionated and hypocritical. I am a sinner, and I admit it.
Yes, the hurtful comments get to me but you know what? I do not have to participate and the fact that I did was wrong. Plain out wrong.
So I do what I have been taught to do - I admit to the error and I try to go forward by not committing it again. G did approach me at a meeting to apologize for some of his remarks, he does continue to make them and he does believe he is not being mean or bigoted when he does. My opinion differs. Oh well.
So I will not link this blog with The Hive and I will continue to moderate comments and I have made arrangements to make sure my home is secure when I am gone. I don't feel threatened and I do not feel afraid...I am just tired of the bile and the vitrol - so I need to stop participating in it and let it go.
Hopefully I will be forgiven. If not, I have only myself to blame and will bear it with the dignity that I have been told is necessary on this walk towards heaven. Three steps forward, four back...but a walk none the less.
“...we who engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. We bring it out in the open, where it can be seen and dealt with. Like a boil that can never be cured so long as it is covered up but must be opened with all its ugliness to the natural medicines of air and light, injustice must be exposed, with all the tension its exposure creates, to the light of human conscience and the air of national opinion before it can be cured.” - Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.