A Day in Life
One of the meetings in the Bay Area that my sponsor attends is the Day In Life Group on AA. I am one of its founding members. We took the name from a Beatles song and you can always tell the people who do not really understand the group because they add a work to the title - usually the word 'the' between Life and Group.
I got to thinking about it because it has been awhile since I have been able to start a new group of AA. I don't have the time right now, of course, unless I am able to start a group that meets at 3am at a truck stop - which might be a good idea some day. Who knows?But today I am just so grateful to have some time to hang out with this little guy, Duffy the Wonder Scotty. He is also pretty pleased. To be able to sit on the stairs, guard the house and know that I am right here. He finds himself on Scotty Patrol today and that suits him just fine.
I have another sponsee down with this horrific flu that is hitting the area. I am so grateful I have not had any problems with it so far! I am on all these immune-suppressant drugs and here I am, fit as a fiddle and only having itchy eyes and tiredness to deal with on a daily basis. God is being very good to me.
I am also really hoping that I can be relieved of the negative thoughts and the underlying need I have to always be right - and to let those I think have done me wrong know about it, by golly. I am taking the right actions and I have to admit my life is better for doing so - I have not found it really necessary to try and MAKE someone understand me for many years. It's wonderful if they do and I have no problem trying to explain my position on something in a clearer way is someone asks. I'm not talking about that - I'm talking about the 'I need them to know why they have hurt me and then I need them to feel really bad about it and apologize and never do it again' syndrome I still hold onto, one day at a time.
So I am making it a point to ask God specifically to remove this need. I am making it a point to do a gratitude list every day. I am going to try my best to not need to be understood, but to be willing to understand - as St. Francis of Assisi suggested.
And I am going to stay on NutriSystems for awhile longer - I am now, today, officially 22 pounds lighter than I was on January 7, 2008. I am still huge and fat, but I am not as huge and not as fat and for that I am very grateful.