I pray it every morning. It has been a part of my prayer discipline for a few years now. I really do want to be a better me and this prayer states my goals. I struggle with humility - or at least I struggle with the humility outlined in the Litany - but I keep praying it every morning.
I am sincere when I pray it. I really do want to be delivered from these desires because they have always gotten me into a spiritual funk. So I mean it when I say it and I mean it now when I say that every time I am given a practical experience of being overlooked, unwanted, disregarded, not listened to, etc. etc. my childish feelings get hurt.
Just this morning I was handed the perfect opportunity to accept with inner grace being shoved aside. I blew it. I simply bowed out and left, angry and hurt. Then I had to do somethings: I had to write it out, pray and meditate on it and actively forgive them. Then I had to acknowledge to God that He had given me a fabulous opportunity and I had missed it.
Good news? I kept quiet at the moment. No apologies need to be made. Phew.
I try not to share my experiences until I get to the solution. I think I am at the solution now. The solution is to thank God for that opportunity and continue to pray the prayer. Someday, God Willing, I will get it right the first time.
The Litany of Humility
O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire of being loved...
From the desire of being extolled ...
From the desire of being honored ...
From the desire of being praised ...
From the desire of being preferred to others...
From the desire of being consulted ...
From the desire of being approved ...
From the fear of being humiliated ...
From the fear of being despised...
From the fear of suffering rebukes ...
From the fear of being calumniated ...
From the fear of being forgotten ...
From the fear of being ridiculed ...
From the fear of being wronged ...
From the fear of being suspected ...
That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be esteemed more than I ...
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease ...
That others may be chosen and I set aside ...
That others may be praised and I unnoticed ...
That others may be preferred to me in everything...
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should…
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it…Amen.
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