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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Rainy Days and Sundays......

I caught them - Duffy and Peanut, arch enemies and sworn to fight each other to the death over any spilled crumbs of food on the floor....give them a rainy day and quiet and they just decided it was easier to snuggle than fight.

Wouldn't it be something if all our problems could be solved like this? A good solid storm, a nice roaring fire, maybe a cup or two of green tea and BLAM! Peace in the Middle East or an entire year without having to threaten management with a strike in order to get a lousy 1.2% raise.

Ok, so that may be a bit unrealistic; however, it was fun to sneak up on the normally bickering dog and cat and catch them peacefully sharing the big comfy chair in the family room. And when they later try to deny it ever happened I have photos....this is the cutest one, but there are more.

Thank you, Kodak.

I feel much better today. That weird, hot sandpapery feeling I had all through my body yesterday seems to be fading. It's still there but not nearly as raw and awful feeling. It still hurts to sit in on position for too long but I would bet that is going to last for awhile. I have my extra-strength Tylenol (because regular strength will just not do) and there is a Law and Order Marathon on some channel somewhere - oh, and I can always check out the Oscars later...aren't they on tonight? I was disappointed that Juno was nominated and Bella ignored but I was not surprised. Afterall, Juno is raw, more intense...the people speak weirdly and use very hip slang and the girl is not really very likeable....still, the message to choose life is just as important and I am glad to see that someone in Hollywood is listening.

I had to DVR Saturday Night Live to watch it today so Jillian could get to sleep at a decent hour. Tina Fey is one of my favorite writers/performers...I love watching 30 Rock and I think it is great when people don't always get her jokes. Perhaps I relate too well to her - except she has a much better figure. COME ON NUTRISYSTEMS DO YOUR STUFF.

As of this morning I weigh 23 pounds less than I did on January 7th, when I started this food plan, and I just realized today that I will be on it during the height of the 'malt balls disguised as easter eggs' season, which I love. Bags of those - I can eat BAGS at a time. Well, what can I say...they taste good and since when does self control taste as good as malt balls? hmmm?
I checked out the kelly blue book value on my car and let's just say I am in big trouble. Oh well.....maybe they will repair it.....maybe ....because if all they do is give me the blue book value on the car? I can pay off what is left on the loan and have about 30 dollars and change left over.

God? About that Lotto request.....?

Anyway, I am not going to worry tonight. You know, life has a way of just "being" and everything always seems to work out for me. I am one of those people who never really get ahead, but always manage to keep pace and isn't that really what matters?

Yes it does.

Thank you, life is good and it is all because of YOU.


MICKY said...

Over 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell.

I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis (Family of Origin & EMDR), up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staffs were very supportive [I had no control over my process]. I was released from hospital 16th September 2004, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little.

I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.”

I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically.

He's a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life to day - after a childhood spent in orphanages. God loves me so much. Fear, pain & guilt are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you (Luke 8: 16-17).


MICKY said...

Leslie K. said...

Hi, Micky!
How do you feel about Father Ed Dowling's involvement as Bill's spiritual advisor until his death?


By W. Robert Aufill

Wilson was deeply attracted to the Catholic Church and even received instruction from Fulton Sheen in 1947. Wilson's wife Lois, looking back on it all, was sure that he was never really close to conversion; but a close friend thought otherwise: "I had the impression that at the last minute, he didn't go through with his conversion because he felt it would not be right for AA." Pass It On, p. 281.

The simplest explanation is that Wilson remained profoundly ambivalent about organized religion and its doctrines. Just as he had shied away from the "Absolutes" of the Oxford Group, so he could not see his way to accepting Catholicism's own absolutism-in particular, papal infallibility and the efficacy of sacraments: "Though no disbeliever in all miracles, I still can't picture God working like that." Kurtz, p. 52.

Concerning infallibility, Wilson wrote to Dowling: "It is ever so hard to believe that any human beings, no matter who, are able to be infallible about anything." Kurtz, p. 325. Pass It On, pp. 218-82. In a 1947 letter to Dowling he said, "I'm more affected than ever by that sweet and powerful aura of the Church; that marvelous spiritual essence flowing down by the centuries touches me as no other emanation does, but when I look at the authoritative layout, despite all the arguments in its favor, I still can't warm up.

No affirmative conviction comes . . . P. S. Oh, if only the Church had a fellow-traveler department, a cozy spot where one could warm his hands at the fire and bite off only as much as he could swallow. Maybe I'm just one more shopper looking for a bargain on that virtue- obedience!"


MICKY said...

Greetings Leslie,
Bill enthusiastically wrote to his Catholic Priest friend, Father Ed Dowling, telling about the help and guidance he was receiving from spirits of the dead while writing his second book, Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions (July 17, 1952):

...Bill adds, "But I have good help -- of that I am certain. Both over here and over there." The "over there" refers to the spirit world. Bill slipped in this voice from the other side like this was an everyday happening.

It was, he said, the voice of Boniface, an apostle from England to Germany, Bavaria, and France, who reformed old church structures, and as bishop with powers from Rome, set up new monasteries and bishoprics. Amazing, that Bill with hangups on the hierarchical church was open to receiving help from a dead bishop.

One turned up the other day calling himself Boniface. Said he was a Benedictine missionary and English. Had been a man of learning, knew missionary work and a lot about structures. I think he said this all the more modestly but that was the gist of it.

I'd never heard of this gentleman but he checked out pretty well in the Encyclopedia. If this one is who he says he is -- and of course there is no certain way of knowing -- would this be licit contact in your book?

He checked with Dowling to discern the spirit. Bill ended this letter by saying that he is "coming back to earth" (from Boniface) and that Harper was interested in publishing the book.106

106. Pass It On, Chapter 16, has a wonderful description of the time Bill heard voices who gave him their names in Nantucket. Their exact names checked out both in the graveyard and in the whaling museum.

The Soul of Sponsorship: The Friendship of Fr. Ed Dowling, S.J. and Bill Wilson in Letters, edited by Robert Fitzgerald, S.J., pages 59 and 116 (footnote).
Hazelden Pittman Archives Press, Center City, MN, 1995.


MICKY said...

My Dear Leslie,
Father Dowling's response was far less enthusiastic. He felt that Bill was messing with lying evil spirits from the dark side:

"Boniface sounds like the Apostle of Germany. I still feel, like Macbeth, that these folks tell us truth in small matters in order to fool us in larger. I suppose that is my lazy orthodoxy."

Letter from Fr. Ed Dowling to Bill Wilson, July 24, 1952,
The Soul of Sponsorship: The Friendship of Fr. Ed Dowling, S.J. and Bill Wilson in Letters, edited by Robert Fitzgerald, S.J., page 59.

Bill wrote back that he felt that the attitude of the Catholic Church towards his psychic contacts was narrow-minded and unreasonable:

"It doesn't seem reasonable to think that the Devil's agents have such direct and wide open access to us when other well-disposed discarnates including the Saints themselves cannot get through.

That is, in any direct way. Since prudent discrimination and good morality is necessary when we deal with people in the flesh, why shouldn't these be the rule with discarnate, too. So motivated, I don't see why the aperture should be so large in the direction of the Devil and so small in the direction of all the good folks who have gone ahead of us.

One can't blame the Church for being cautious but I do sometimes wonder if the view isn't rather narrow and even monopolistic. To assume that all communications, not received under Church auspices, are necessarily malign seems going pretty far.

I'm not sure the Church says this but that is what the inference always seems to be. I do say this, though, more in the nature of speculation than argument, for the spook business is no longer any burning issue so far as I am concerned.

Without inviting it, I still sometimes get an intrusion such as the one I described in the case of the purported Boniface."
Letter from Bill Wilson to Fr. Ed Dowling, August 8, 1952,
The Soul of Sponsorship: The Friendship of Fr. Ed Dowling, S.J. and Bill Wilson in Letters, edited by Robert Fitzgerald, S.J., page 61.

The ghosts were talking to Bill Wilson without him even inviting them? Bill really did have mental problems, didn't he?


Leslie K. said...

thanks, Micky (I'm sorry I mispelled your name before, please forgive me). I just love Father Ed. He spoke at one of our conventions, in St. Louis, and was such a source of love, Truth and support for AA. I fully expect his cause for cannonization to be opened one day.
Have you ever looked into the St. Calix society? It is an organization for Catholic Alcoholics and is a wonderful source of strength for those who cannot find their sobriety in AA.