I have been doing a daily gratitude list that I share with another member of my circle for over a year now. It is a good habit to have and it requires me, after morning prayer, to acknowledge that I have good things in my life. There are good people. There is a modicum of safety. There is a great deal of peace.
A daily gratitude list can be difficult to assemble. There are some mornings I wake up sad that people I love have left The Church, or that I have been set aside by others as they rush headlong into their daily life. Those thoughts can dominate my day if I do not pause and assemble my list of what I have in this life right now that is good, solid and true.
And I have a lot! I have a safe place to live and financial stability. I have two dogs that enjoy my company and a good group of solid friends, both on social media and in the flesh, that enrich my life. I hope I do the same for them.
There are always going to be times when I wish I had chosen better as a young woman but I also recognize that my choices have given me a perspective that is unique and valuable in the world. I guess regret can be inevitable for short spurts of time. It's okay when it hits. The response to those regrets is what makes my life successful and I choose, today, to be grateful for my past and for the tough decision I had to make this year. It is important to be whole, to be integrated. Living a life of integrity matters.
With God's Grace I get to do that today. Because I have made that choice, I get to do things I would never have gotten to do.
Thank you, God, for my life today exactly as it is; I wouldn't change a thing, even if I could!
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