I have been given information about myself that I am trying to process. It has lead to my being banned from something I love to do. I feel this odd mixture of sadness and relief. On the one hand, I am sure the person is right. I have been too negative and there have been complaints about me. I thought I had made amends for those errors but what I see now is that those mistakes will be held against me forever.
So what happens when someone takes my inventory and it is unfair and lopsided?
I thank them for their insight and go away.
Sure, it would be nice to have some justice in the situation but that is not going to happen.
So, I accept. I have been too negative. I have made mistakes that cannot be forgiven. I walk away and do not look back because it will do not good.
Will I miss doing what I love? Absolutely. I know God has a plan and will hold me up. I can cry all I want; that chapter of my life is over.
Walk away, be kind, do not seek 'closure'. Just go forward and try to be a better me.
Jesus, give me the grace to accept that I am decreasing while others increase. Amen.
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