Meditate on the horrors of Hell, which will last for eternity because of one easily-committed mortal sin. Try hard to be among the few who are chosen. Think of the eternal flames of Hell, and how few there are that are saved.
- Saint Benedict Joseph Labre (1748-1784)
I have behaved in a selfish and self-centered manner, stepping on the toes of my fellows and causing them to retaliate.
I have no excuse. I acted out of fear and self-pity. I started the ball rolling and those who have chosen to take themselves as far from me as possible are right to do so.
I made my amends - which, to those who wonder, is NOT an apology. I admitted my wrongs and made the promise that it will not happen again. I pledged my undying love and loyalty.
I do not deserve to be forgiven by humans but I know I have been forgiven by God. I am so grateful for the people in my 12 Step group who do not give up on me and help me, with love, to see where I went off the rails.
Tomorrow is a new day. While I know I have a solid foundation of sobriety and am surrounded by my sober and my Catholic family, it is still important to be open and honest about my failings. If I am not, I could drink again.
And I am determined to die a sober woman.
Thank you for your prayers.