I have been praying this prayer for the past five days:
Oh most beautiful flower of Mt. Carmel, fruit wine splenderous of Heaven.
Blessed Mother of the Son of God, Immaculate Virgin,
Assist me in my necessity.
Oh Star of the Sea, help me and show me herein you are my mother.
Oh Holy Mary, Mother of God, Queen of Heaven and Earth,
I humbly beseech you from the bottom of my heart to succour me in my necessity.
There is none that can withstand your power. Oh show me here you are my mother.
Oh Mary, conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee (3 times).
Thank you for mercy towards me and mine.
My intention is as it always is; that those I love who have walked away from The Eucharist and Truth, return and live the remainder of their lives on earth in humble obedience to the Will of God.
And I pray that I may do the same, and that I may accept whatever God's Holy Will is when it comes to those I love.
I know what I know, and what I believe. I have had the experience of seeing the miracle of renewal in my life and in the lives of countless Catholics who have dared to just open themselves up to the possibility that maybe, just maybe, there is more to this than what I want at the moment...that maybe, just maybe, God might have a better idea on how to run things than me.
Turning my will and my life over to the care of God sounds so easy on paper, but it requires a total abandonment and trust. St Therese spoke of being like a little child and that is the kind of trust I want to have in my God - the same kind of trust a baby shows through her eyes as adult hands reach for her and lift her from her bed. The look in those eyes that would change to wounded shock if those hands suddenly cause her pain, or drop her. I know that God will never drop me, and I know in my mind that I am safe in His Hands. The trick, so to speak, is letting that knowledge permeate my heart and soul - to open the eyes of my heart so that I can gaze upon the Face of My True Father, My True Spouse, He Who created me and loves me more than I can imagine.
So I publish this prayer, and hope you find answers in the words. I believe that the act of praying it is taking steps down the road towards total trust in Him.